Today, as yesterday I find myself somewhat troubled and annoyed. It could be the fact that I have a cold & feel slightly miserable. I think it is that and a combination of some other things. All the things that I have going on in my "mind's eye" as well as in the real world.
With all the hubba-balloo going on downtown with the Olympics, I find myself less annoyed at the change it has put on the city but more annoyed that I have no job, no money or anyone with money to take me around to see all the cool things the Olympics has to offer. I probably could take in some of the free stuff, but like I said before, I have a stinkin' cold. After being unable to visit with friends throughout my schooling, I have found that a majority of them have altogether given up on asking me to do things with them anymore so there's even less chance that I can go and enjoy the shows with people.
So, here I am in my apartment with the four walls to look at (as my Zeets/Grandmother would say) and my cat & dog running amok in the place, jumping on tables and creating a mess as usual. Today I am less than motivated to even stop them let alone get up and see what they have gotten into. I often wished for the life of a pampered pet, or even just a pet like mine. Just wake up, play, get a rub down, get fed and you even have a silly human who will clean up the poops & pees whether its in a litter box or a plastic bag with cute paw print decorations on it. (Yeah, that makes it easier to pick up doggy doo) Ah, the carefree life of a pet. What was the point of this again? I forget...
Anyway, back to my life. So I went to a great office to see my potential new work place. The meeting seemed to go great. He was a charming & happy man who had the personality of someone I would love to work for. Not to mention all the amenities I need as a fresh new RMT. Basically I would just show up for work and all I need to do is help with a load of laundry here & there as well as buy my own lotions or oils. He seemed to be asking for a steep amount of my pay though. I have talked it over with some of my former classmates, and they would be paying 5% less than I would be but included in my rent would be half the cost of the business cards as well as all my debit & credit charges. So I'm thinking its not a bad deal, and he is willing to re-negotiate after a few months to a flat rate rent. With a great laid-back atmosphere, a clinic owner who does not mind my nose septum piercing & will let me do my treatments wearing Lulu Lemon pants, I think I scored. Not to mention he loves the fact that I am First Nations and suggests I work that angle since there's such a high First Nations population on the North Shore. The more I think about it, the more my gut tells me this is the perfect fit for me. I think my over anxious mind makes things a lot more complicated than they seem.
Now all I need to do is confirm that all my affairs are in order & I can receive my registration number. Any day now guys, seriously...not like I need to pay rent or eat or anything! I think it's more having my future in limbo with things "in the works" but nothing confirmed that has me so uneasy. I think I would be a much happier camper if I knew I had a job that I would be starting in the very near future! I'm not the kind of person who takes well to uncertainty. All the little things have my stomach in knots. I sure hope that I can figure all of this stuff out sooner than later. I want to get back to my nice, calm, zen, grateful & (somewhat) worry free self.
Ama ya
Namaste
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